Couldn't find a more gracious, feminine looking diver (guess this will suffice)
I’m back!!!!!
I know it has been forever. Did you miss me??? Well I’ll explain everything as time progresses. Let’s just say I have been thoroughly enjoying the “un-boo-less” life for the past few months. I don’t know how to insert an asterisk and the word “un” to the blogs title (if someone does please let me know), so I thought it strange to continue blogging here when I am no longer booless. I reckoned it would be a contradiction of sorts, misleading and… well you get it. I certainly did not want to begin receiving hate mail from the singles club ousting me from the group. In any event, I have come to learn now, more so than ever before that I just love writing and for that reason can’t seem to stay away. So while the content may be slightly different, I’m sure there will be something everyone (boo-ed up or not) can relate to. At least that is my hope.
That’s it for my disclaimer. And now that the preliminaries are out of the way (well sort of)… on with the good stuff.
I can’t say I haven’t taken what I would consider leaps in the name of love in the past. Guess what makes this current leap different was that the past leaps were primarily me wishfully thinking the person I was looking to leap for would morph into someone other than they were. So I leaped in the “well, they aren’t everything I was looking for, but we’ll try to make this work” sense– love conquers all kind of thing. The leap of love I reference now though is certainly of an entirely different magnitude. I decided to leap because of love, not in the hopes that I’d stumble upon it and serendipitously find it. Love makes sacrifices and does so willingly after all right? So this leap leaves me halfway across the country so that every spare moment the boo has, we can spend it together (well at least that was my hope). Funny how the way our imaginations paint pictures somehow look slightly blurred and distorted compared to the portrait of reality. This leap also leaves me with an extraordinary amount of time on my hands. I heard someone say that we need to spend time with ourselves so we can get to know who we really are. I have an awful lot of learning to do. But time no less–and while it is perfect for blogging but the flip side of it is the enormous amount to time I have to think about life, love, and the like. They say love is the most discussed topics in all of human history. The most written about, the most complex, the thing that has lead to the most confusion and study. I think we can all understand why.
And while there are a plethora of reasons why people take leaps in life, how many people still take leaps of love? And if people are leaping for love all the time, are they leaping together in the name of love or is it one party leaping for love while the other is leaping for an entirely different reason? If two people leap together but for different reasons, it eventually becomes apparent. What are you leaping for?
Hey, your definitely doing well!
I was wondering when you would begin writing again. I was thinking, I need to talk to women who are actually in a relationship because single gals just don’t understand. They automatically assume your changing FOR him and not for US (me and my beau) (as a couple) you know? When you have a plan, and it consists of you and your beloved, the decisions you make individually– major, or sometimes not even, can indeed affect one’s relationship. Sacrifice.
Wow, I really needed this. I am certainly having trouble leaping. Not because I don’t want to, it’s all the responsibility that comes with it. Will his parents like me? If not how will he handle it? Granted I have been assured, but most importantly I have to assure myself that I have a goal and that I am working towards, even though this goal brings so much pressure.
Love consists of so many things, responsibility, reliability, communication, understanding, and great conversation and in the end a change of lifestyle. For me it consists of being enveloped into a collectivist culture. Asian culture. Extremely sensitive culture. I am leaping for a lifetime with my love, in order to have that, I have to leap for independence first, then everything God willing will follow.
Goodness I have so many questions and it seems to be (ahem) irritating, I don’t want to fuel my beau that I have nothing but doubts, but from my past experience, I can’t help but think of the worst case scenario. (I’ve been told I watch to many East Indian movies lol)
I like to be prepared, yes I know it is impossible to know EVERYTHING ahead of time, but I’d definitely don’t like surprises, ones that I suspect may sabotage something that I pray is meant to be.
I am trying to expect surprises everyday, but if those get me down… lol. I am formulating my Plan B even though I don’t know all the details to Plan A.
They say, when we are secure, we feel most insecure in our circumstances and when we feel secure in our circumstances can actually be a very insecure predicament.
Mom often tells me “You your always worrying about problems you don’t even have”.
I certainly hope so.